[♥] 培训营 [#]

培训营要到了。 学记证即将过期。

开始倒数。
准备当学哥学姐。

我已经做好心理准备晚上不用睡觉。
=）
做站长要骂人。
我要好好培养情绪。
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早操润坚负责。
天，舍监被拖下水。
不用紧，我在旁边抓那些做错的人就好。
嘿嘿嘿。

水战我们负责装水球。
五六百个气球。
加油加油。

期待回巢。=）
嘿嘿，我要看super junior.

23届加油。
=）


要小小声说，
谢谢捷传。
呵呵。











雨后，

总是好天气。

[♥] Outing with -mushroom- [#]

hahaz..

jinghui came from rawang to visit me..

so happy..^^

go ioi,

watched movie..storm warrior..

walked around...

bought birthday present...

drank starbucks...

ate tempura...

met chew loong..

XD

overall,

happy day!

[♥] 回家 [#]

刚从家乡回来。


在家乡，
做的事不外是那几样：



1．日喝至少两杯咖啡。
难得嘛。
不过晚上我还是睡到很甜。
呵呵。
临走之前公公还塞几包咖啡给我。

2．和我的狗狗玩。

超想念它的哦。

3．对着电视机。
呵呵。
都是和公公一起看的。
多数都是那种七八十年代的连续剧咯。

4．晚上睡觉冷到死，
可能是乡下吧，
特别冷。
还要点蚊香的哦。

5．三天里的早餐、午餐、和晚餐都吃外面的，
吃到我怕。

6．晚上还有宵夜哦，
Popiah菜饼，
一片才30仙。
呵呵。
超爱的。

7．发呆。
有时还会蛮无聊的。

8．去泡温泉。
附近有个温泉。
不过温泉的水好像不太热。
=.=

9．抓鱼。
其实是我弟弟抓啦，
我在旁边看而已，
呵呵。
PS: 还有虾哦。

10．爬树。
其实是我公公爬啦。
他去采芒果。
呵呵。

11．听火车声，
家乡附近就是火车站嘛。
多数的火车都是去新加坡的。
每个拜四还会有从泰国的火车经过哦。

12．打井水抹地。
呵呵，
家乡还留着一口井。
不过已经没有用来煮水了拉。

13.    看了第五次的2012。
 饶了我吧。



14.成功看完一本小说。
^.^



大概就这样。
我会想念家乡的。
马六甲。
呵呵。

Labels: So Hard to Say..It's Complicated.

[♥] Another Sleepless Night [#]

I don’t know how it came to me.

To be more specific,
I don’t know how I came to it.

Every night,
I make myself tired.
Not just physically tired,
but mentally and spiritually tired.
But when I lay on my bed,
I CAN’T sleep.

This is going to be terrible.
Traumatized and scarred and devastated.
My mind started to drifted away,
but too bad it’s not into a sweet dream,
but an anguished nightmare.
And I couldn’t imagine any help convincing enough to vanquish the terrors
--in my mind and in the breezeway.
Part of me I scared to leave the nightmare,
Part of me wants to go desperately.
Tension of opposites.

Sometimes,
I lay on my bed,
with my eyes wide open,
with my mind brooding.
I just can’t make myself fall asleep.
Then I will start to imagine something terrible,
envisage someone would come inside my room and KILL me,
someone will SMOOTHER me with pillow.
Someone will haunt me.

I tried to think something good.
Something happy.
I let my mind wander.
I let I come:
Failed.

And I managed to fall asleep only after a couple of hours.

Now I started to be afraid of the night.
Fear of the dark.
Phobia.

Because I’m afraid I can’t fall asleep.


Oww…
This is suffering.
Mentally and physically suffered.



Today’s gonna be another sleepless night.








I want to find somewhere else peace.
Maybe a river.
So I could wade into this river,
let my sins drown to the bottom,
let the waters carry me someplace far.
Someplace with no nightmares, no memories, no sins.

Labels: So Many Tears

[♥] Agony [#]

Oouch..

My eyes swell and puffy and bloodshot…
and both of my eyes had gone red.

I have to apply eye drops every hour,
which made my eyes extremely uncomfortable,
and tears kept coming out from my eyes.

The next day,
when I woke up,
I can’t open my eyes.
I had to put an effort to open my eyes.

When I looked the mirror,

my eyes became SMALL,
and even red.

Everytime I bend down,
my eyes will grow pain,
and I will have a headache.

When the night came,
my mum applied a sticky eye ointment on my eyes.
Everything went blur later,
so I went to bed early,

it was 6 in the evening.

But I couldn’t fall asleep.
My mind drifted everywhere.
I kept turned around on my bed,
and I managed to sleep only at 10 in the night.

My eyes are pain now,
and red,
and small.
Tears keep coming out.
Everything goes tough.

And now,
My right eye is smaller than the left eye.


Help me.


Owww…
Agony.





Emotions down.

Labels: Emotions Down

[♥] happy belated birthday, popo hui ni [#]

yo hui ni popo,
happy belated birthday~^^

love popo always..^^
wish ya all da best in the future..=)

[♥] 差点错过,可是又没有错过的会议。 [#]

[♥] The Fourth Time I Watched 2012 [#]

I had watched 2012 for four times.


The first time,
I watched with Wei Lin in the cinema.
The second time,
I watched with my parents in my house.
The third time,
I watched with my brothers in my house, using computer.
The fourth time,
I watched with Mean Shan, Jing Hui and Ning Jin in cinema, again.

While Jing Hui was weeping at the left side of me,
and Mean Shan was laughing in maniac at the right side of me,
I was totally speechless.

My heart didn’t pound ferociously like the first time I watched,
and my emotions didn’t flow up and down like the first time I watched.
And I didn’t cry.

I just felt cold in the cinema.
=.=

I hope I won’t watch that movie for the fifth time.






Repeated:
If the world comes to The End,
What will you do?


If you choose to survive,
Then there are two options,
Firstly,
You must have one billion dollars.
Or,
Prepare yourself as a top professional person in the world.


I will rather just die.





But what should I do if I have chosen the wrong route?

[♥] Happy Birthday, Jing Hui [#]

hey girl..
happy birthday!!

wish ya all the best in the future..

happy always..=)

[♥] Exam Result Released. [#]

Finally,

final exam is over.

And finally,

the result is released.

Hey,

The piece of paper didn’t disappoint me.

At first,

I thought I couldn’t maintain in the first class.

I thought I will face a very very bad result.

I thought I will drop.

But all these didn’t happen.

In fact,

I’m satisfied with it.

My results,

is most unexpected and unpredictable.

I’m happy.

I’m feeling elated.

I’m filled with triumphant.

And I wonder,

Why my results can be…

so…

out of my imagination?

I never envisage this result before.

It should be…

worse than that.

God, am I hallucinating?

I’m totally gobsmacked.

Hey,

Thanks to my table lamp,

which accompany me for many many sleepless night,

brighten my pages of book,

and,

brighten my future.